For the first time, Nikoas went to bed with Ben Rider wishing he didn't have to--wishing they could watch a movie together, go for a walk, try to cook something edible, anything else but this, which had always been so easy between them. For the first time, what he was missing hit Nikolas with full force. he did what was required of him, but his heart wasn't in it.
Ben didn't even notice.
He apparently didn't know Nikolas well enough to spot the difference.